Y Saturday, April 01, 2006
hey.
havent been blogging for a longlong while.
wad with all the campcraft comp and promo stuffs.
haix. ok. i shall take this time to update.
campcraft comp finals last sat.25th march. we went PA very early and we started destressing by singin and playing.yeah. den when we were gg to the lot. we saw crez np ppl all there to cheer us on. heh. and we were seriously fast ok. we were like the fastest skl over there and we were really pleased and stuff. BUT just at tht moment when we thot we wld be ready to step out of the boundary, the poncho tore. ohwells. we just gotta use the poncho meant for the unseen project to cover up the hole. it took us a damn long time lah. and in the end our whole shelter looks like shit and theres like holes. and it costed us our marks for our time and shelter. the team was pretty upset but we tried covering up thru our normal silly laughs and stuff. we thot we wld get 10th position. then in the end we got 7th. we tried to cheer ourselves up by sayin we're the 7FOREVER GALZ. hah. coz we got lot 7 in the prelims, we got 7th position frm the prelims, and now finals we got lot 7 and we got 7th position in the end. and when we were unpitchin, the cis came to cheer us up. zakiah maam was sayin "i noe u all trained very hard for this, and its only normal tht u all are upset and cry over this. but some things are not in our will" . tht was it. i started crying. i cldnt help it. if it wasnt for tht BLOODY PONCHO, we cld haf gotten top5 im so sure. i cried, and i looked up to see so had zakiah maam. and the entire team was cryin. we were hugging. it was sad. its like our hopes for all the 4mths were dashed, all the trngs came to nothing. we didnt make it to our expectations. and we were disappointed. i cried badly. coz i was ultra disappointed. but im glad we got trophy. haha. top10 all got trophy lah. we're all winners! its just tht lady luck wasnt on our side. some stuff are just not within the power of our hands. haix.
tdae. SGT PROMO + FIRST CLASS DRILL BADGE at GESS. im upset.
whyy do they put first class drill badge test and sgt promo tgt? DAMMIT LAH. WAD BLOODY SHIT.
firstly, we went to do sgt theory paper. den when we were abt to do first class paper, the sir came and told us to take first class drills first. and so we went to do drills. after which we went to do first class paper. and by the time the paper ended it was 5++pm already pls. and THEN we started our sgt drills. wadthe. firstly, coz there were only 9ppl in our sqd who passed second class, the sgts left alr to take their ssgt drills. and there were only 5 of us who took first class who was taking sgt promo as well. and we cldnt join our sqdmates coz they started wayy earlier coz they werent taking first class. and SO the bloody ci told the FIVE of us to fall in in 3ranks. aft which he called one out to command. which leaves the 4 of us. and he told the commanding person to command disebelah and tukar haluan. we werent used to marchin with so little ppl so the four of us kinda screwed it up and din noe where to march. and we screwed up alot of drills. dammit. we werent used to having so little ppl. MISTER, IF U'RE SO GREAT, WHY DONT U TRY SHOWING US HOW TO DO TUKAR HALUAN AND DISEBELAH WITH ONLY FOUR PPL? DAMN YOU. i was freaking pissed lah pls. I HATE YOU. YES YOU, THE BLOODY BRACES GUY.
yeah, i was damn upset. i dun want to fail my sgt promo! i cried badly in the toilet. haix. so now my hopes are all on my first class. arghh. im upset. i hope i can pass my sgt promo! tho thts like pretty impossible.
i realise nowadays im forever crying abt np. i give up. seriously. im giving it all up. i give up on np. its like im working so hard but the results always make me cry. so wads the point of trng so hard when all i'll ever get is just sadness? campcrafts liddat. we trained so hard, but we only got 7th. which is so far frm our expectations. and promo. i trained so hard for it, i so badly want to pass it. i trained hard. coz its like most of the time we were trng for campcraft. and i trained hard for promo. and in the end it only disappointed me.
I GIVE UP ON NP. I DONT CARE ABT IT ANYMORE. oyeah. ure out to make my life miserable. but now u dun haf to. coz im willing to give up now.